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Balinares ([personal profile] balinares) wrote2007-02-07 03:26 pm

First update in ages, go me!

So, yeah, I'm not quite done hibernating, as far as LJ is concerned, but this at least I want to post while I still remember it.


This night, I made a dream I still remember bits of, which in itself is noteworthy, as this is not usual.

There was a short and mostly irrelevant bit that took place at the next EF, involving the usual dramatis personae, which has been something of a recurrent theme lately in what dreams I do remember, lending me to think that my hindbrain worries more about it than I care to admit consciously.

But the real vibe of the dream came much later. The area was mountainous, and I needed to reach the top of the highest peak, overcoming several adversarial conditions on the way. Because, by reaching the top, I'd earn the ability. (Yes, I've played too much Zelda lately, I know.)

The ability turned out to be the power to turn at will into an Australian white hawk (is there even a species of white hawks in Australia? No idea...), and fly.

Now, I commonly have the power of flight in my dreams, as a general thing; but it's a tricky power to wield. First, I need to remember that I have this power, and dreams generally make this kind of extrinsical thinking difficult. Next, controlling the power itself requires a lot of concentration and focus: you need to repel at the ground with all your will, and that can't generally be sustained for very long.

But this time was different.

It was effortless. It was nimble. It was free. I'd simply turn into a white hawk and fly.

The species in question was being actively hunted, because in my dreams, good things rarely come for free, and I do remember being shot at at least once; but, unlike my typical dream, this was never a concern, because I was so agile on my white wing, they stood no chance to hit me.


Dear brain: that was a great dream. I want more of those, please.

[identity profile] aloiis.livejournal.com 2007-02-07 06:38 pm (UTC)(link)
*Notes: remember to ask his Australian friend who's on a shamanic path about the significance of "white Australian hawk".* :3

[identity profile] balinares.livejournal.com 2007-02-08 10:24 am (UTC)(link)
Hee, that could be fun, thanks! :D
I've been looking up Australian species of white raptors, and I think the closest thing to my dream is the letter-winged kite. I'm pondering making the species my personal oneiric totem, for kicks, but we'll see. :)

[identity profile] aloiis.livejournal.com 2007-02-09 05:03 am (UTC)(link)
How do you "make" an animal your totem? :P I thought they picked you?

[identity profile] balinares.livejournal.com 2007-02-09 11:57 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, it's actually not that complicated: the idea is to recognize that there is, within your brain, a nebulous but wonderful ability to produce random aspects of beauty, contexts, images, colors, scenes, that can touch you deeply, and that this hard-to-corral ability, that flimsy and wonderful thing which only seems to live when you're not looking for it, probably deserves its own imagery and its own name. And it's only fitting that the imagery should come from a random spur of output of that very ability. :)

(Needless to say, I am NOT going to come within a ten mile radius of taking the 'totem' thing in any sort of serious shamanic way. :) It's only meant as an imagery, a label, a metaphore for something which is significant to me yet hard to seize... And I hope this doesn't shock whichever stance on totems you are posting from, dear!)

[identity profile] aloiis.livejournal.com 2007-02-10 11:50 pm (UTC)(link)
I hope you did appreciate what my friend took the time to type for you, still. :)

[identity profile] balinares.livejournal.com 2007-02-11 01:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, yes, yes, yes, it was very nice of them!! I intend to reply to them when I've digested the whole insightful comment, and when I have an idea how to say things to this person I don't know without sounding too silly -- but at least I do wish to express my thankfulness, because that was a heck of an informative post they kindly wrote for me. :)

[identity profile] aloiis.livejournal.com 2007-02-13 08:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Yay! :3